If you have read my blog, Journey to Love Oneself (JTLO), you will know that I came from a fairly abusive background.
I came to a point where I knew I had to either do something or die. So I found a therapist and started working through things.
I did as much as I could on my own and with some assistance from people in my life who were trying to reach me. I was doing better but something was missing.
The first time I experienced any kind of energy healing was in massage school. We were working with pendulums. My classmate was trying to balance my Chakras. She worked with my root chakra and moved on to my sacral chakra. And got stuck.
I don’t recall much of what happened. My PTSD got triggered and I remember screaming and struggling not to scream in class. I remember a teacher who was trying to mitigate the situation and a classmate who was bewildered and confused and also awed by the experience.
A part of me knew in that moment what I had been missing in my attempts to heal 27 years of abuse. Talking about it, journaling, praying, attempts to meditate, attempts to meet the needs that I never had met, etc. All of these had been utilized and only gotten me so far. I knew there had to be another piece somewhere. And when I was ready for it it came in the form of energy healing.
I had a few more experiences in massage school. Even angering a teacher. But I finished and I knew that I needed some form of energy healing technique for my own healing.
Thankfully one of my teachers was a Reiki master. And she offered her classes at a discount to her students. So I scraped up the money and went.
At each level I found I was able to do greater things for my healing. I really started on a journey to root out all that I was and separate it from all I was expected to be.
It was a long and grueling process. I had already been at it for 5 years. And I had at least another 4 years to go. But for the first time, I could see the changes. I could feel the healing. I thank my God that I received Reiki at that time.
It was able to reach all the areas I just couldn’t reach without it. Emotions and spirit and mental energies all in ways that I had only been able to scratch the surface of before. Energetic energies for the first time got the attention they needed.
I think I knew that without it all my years of working to heal myself would have failed. Without this amazing technique, I would surely have spent far longer working through my past and it may be that I would never have been quite so fully healed.
But I had it now and coupled with everything else I had already been doing, I started on the hardest part of my journey.
I know that these days Reiki is touted as a way to relax and enjoy the moment. Like a swedish massage. All happiness, relaxation, gentleness, and calmness. But I found it is far more powerful than that.