Friend

Friend Posted on November 11, 2014by ajoval So you are almost caught up to where I am now. I mean I could go on and on about my past, but frankly, I really don’t care to. Most of the past is old and doesn’t affect me as strongly as it used to. This is mostly due to Read More…

Men

Men Posted on August 14, 2014by ajoval Let me flesh out the man background a bit. My father molested me about the age of one and continued to abuse me in every non-physical way you can abuse a person for the rest of my childhood, all through my teen years and almost into my thirties. (That’s right, Read More…

Setbacks

Setbacks Posted on August 5, 2014by ajoval I had figured out in my healing processes that setbacks are normal. When I was moving into a new place I didn’t know the rules. I wasn’t comfortable with what it felt like to be there. It was difficult to want to stay. So I would inevitably revert back to Read More…

Learning to Love II

Learning to Love II Posted on July 31, 2014by ajoval And after some time I started to feel his love. In a general sort of way. Just love for everyone and everything. And that was a whole new glorious sensation in and of itself. And then I started to realize the love was aimed at me. Well I Read More…

Learning to Love

Learning to Love Posted on July 22, 2014by ajoval Well, I had to start somewhere and it seemed the best place to truly start learning this was to go to the one person I knew loved me. The thing is, I pulled away from people all the time. I never allowed anyone to care about me or Read More…

New Life?

New Life? Posted on July 17, 2014by ajoval Well, I was actually reaching a point where I was happy to wake up. I thought I was really getting somewhere.  And I really was. But it wasn’t the end. And I knew deep inside that there was more to come. I just couldn’t figure out what. I mean Read More…

Free Posted on July 15, 2014by ajoval Finally free. And that thought reverberated through every aspect of my being every time I healed from some deep trauma.Every time I let go of someone or something or an experience. I was free and becoming more free all the time. The new problem became finding and developing aspects of Read More…

Spirits

  Spirits Posted on May 26, 2014by ajoval I would often feel someone touching me growing up. But no one was around. I had a few dreams I recall that were absolutely terrifying because they involved demented or evil spirits. I also recall many instances in my life where I have been directed, guided, or physically controlled Read More…

Energy

Energy Posted on May 12, 2014by ajoval This climb would be infinitely more intricate and delicate. It required a level of commitment to myself and my Self that I had simply been preparing for earlier. I had to learn, quickly, about the energetic body. If you have no knowledge of how intricate this area of a human Read More…